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My Body Decided My Family Was Complete #Essure

I have two beautiful daughters whom I love more than life itself. There’s a big age gap between them because I had Olivia when I was really young at age 20. Bridget came along six years later and I always thought that about having a third child when she was about 3 years old. 

 

Unfortunately, my body said different and I knew when Bridget was only a mere 14 months old that there would be no more babies for me. In December 2005, I developed a chronic vulvar pain condition called vulvodynialiterally overnight. Seriously I was fine when I went to bed and woke up the next morning feeling like I was on fire. The sad part is that I am still suffering six years later.

Those first few months the pain was constant and relentless. I became severely depressed because my life completely changed. I knew I could still get pregnant, but the thought of carrying a baby and giving birth made me shudder. I knew I could never handle a delivery or even carrying a child in my broken body.  I was so sad. It was in those first scary and lonely months that I realized that my family was complete. 

I was mad and thought it wasn’t fair. I had wanted more kids and it took me a very long time before I could come to terms and just accept my situation for what it was. I didn’t get the chance to decide if I wanted more kids or not. My body spoke for me and said no more.

When I finally found a doctor who knew about my condition and could help, I asked her if she thought I would ever be able to have more children. She told me that if I did, I would be in worse shape than I am in now. At that point, I was terrified to have sex because I could still get pregnant, but if I did it would make my life so much worse. 

After hearing this news from my doctor, my husband got a vasectomy so I wouldn’t have to worry about it happening by accident. I felt much better after he did because this pain terrifies me and I try to keep it under control as much as I can. I never want to go back to those first dark months. 

This post has been very emotional for me to write and I sit here crying remembering the beginning of it all. However, I try to think positive and I’m so grateful for the two beautiful girls that I do have and thank God every day that I had them young. If I had waited, I would have never been able to have kids. 

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Stacie Vaughan

Stacie is the mom of two girls and lives in Ontario, Canada. She enjoys cooking/baking, photography, reading, DIY and is fueled by lots of coffee!

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